The Portal That Became Me

In the days leading up to last weekend, my body had already begun clearing—

a lingering cough, subtle tightness in my chest, and an inner sense that something was shifting.

So when the weekend arrived, I listened.

I postponed the Presence Portal I was due to hold and gave myself full permission to rest.

What I didn’t realise at the time was that the portal had already opened.

It didn’t need a gathering. It didn’t need a structure.

It opened through me.

What followed was hours—literal hours—of energetic and physical release.

Every time I lay down and relaxed, another wave moved through.

Dizziness, hot and cold surges, nausea, trembling, pulsing, pressure in my head, waves of sensation through my spine, and an unexplainable buzzing throughout my whole body.

Burping. Buzzing. Shaking.

Not dramatic. Not emotional. But deeply, undeniably real.

Every time I thought, “I’m okay now,” another wave would come.

Not to punish me. But to purify.

To make space.

Because here’s the truth:

I wasn’t meant to host the first Presence Portal.

I was meant to become it.

And this had to happen.

Not because I wasn’t ready.

But because the portal I was preparing to hold required me to live it first.

Presence can’t be performed.

It can’t be taught from the mind.

It must be embodied—held from within.

And that’s what this initiation was.

A sacred stripping back of what was no longer needed—identity, control, structure, even urgency—so I could hold this space from purity, not performance.

The clearing went late into the night.

I lay in the dark, shivering, then sweating. Releasing. Feeling energy move through and out different parts of the body.

At times confused, but never afraid.

Because I could feel something greater than me taking over.

I could feel something I had always known… becoming real inside my body.

When I woke the next morning, I felt… clear.

Like I’d been rewritten.

Like presence had anchored itself through me.

This is what the Presence Portal is.

Not a class. Not a workshop.

A field. A space that reveals what’s true—through stillness, through silence, through the body’s intelligence.

You don’t need to arrive ready.

You only need to arrive open.

The Next Presence Portal Gatherings:

• Sunday 15th June

• Sunday 13th July

  Both at 4:30pm AEST (held online)

To join, click here

Come exactly as you are.

Let presence do the rest.